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Saturday, April 23rd, 2011
4:25 pm	Love has nothing to do with the body My wife's encounter rather point the "first touch" taste, we used to be friends, after a few times and "dinosaurs" of the meeting, I met some friends already and inexplicable fear, but she was in the network on such a special, so I braved the dinosaurscvfhsgdd have a date again, and the risk of inviting her to meet. After refusing several times, but also piqued my curiosity, kind invitation to me again and again, she finally agreed to meet me. Ucc coffee house in the door, I saw her. Days! She is so beautiful, looks exactly like Michelle Reis, in particular the waistline no gain a grip heart let me inexplicable, that moment, I have found that she was my life the most important part. Soon, we got married, and I by a "thousand flowers from before, leaves no Zhanshen" the prodigal son, became a home a good man. The wife is the backbone of the company's business, the pressure of work allowed her to have a lot of girls, once a bad mood, to comfort themselves with sweets habit, With promotion, her entertainment, more and more work seems never done, more and more serious favorite habits. Gradually began to gain weight, she is always asking me, "Now I is not fat ah?" I nevercvfhsgdd answer is "No, and before too thin, I like Zhuyuanyurun woman." Later, his wife was pregnant, his wife, an only child, I was the eldest son of our two families, the wife of the belly of the child is the only one of our two first generation. Wife is many people as well as the panda care, enjoying the highest level of care, and countless high-calorie foods like duck coaxed by us as a culmination of coercion of responsibility, just to be able to rinse the mouth of the wife . October delivery, my son was born, in order to let the children get adequate nutrition, his wife is in addition to aircraft flying in the sky, in the water in addition to ships, four-legged addition to something other than eat around the bench. Her body already, and then different person, almost to a higher and gasoline down the barrel. Then I have also been promoted in the unit, double happiness, and I and his wife are overjoyed. But the happy days did not take long, my work has gradually busy, and every day the customer received endless daily Guang pay staggered, from time to time we must travel. My wife began to suspect that their own fat, not pretty, not attractive to me, who seems to be born with self-confidence and beauty also disappeared. She began to check my phone, no matter what time investigating my whereabouts at any time, although I have repeatedly explained, but she did not listen to, gradually, I do not bother to explain that I had from the first into the outside entertainment is not willing to go home. Occasionally home, a battle will break out, the two sides war of words, words Souchangguadu find the most wounding to stimulate each other, while also hurting themselves. Finally one day, we are tired, noisy, do not know who should say "we divorce it" the terrible atmosphere of a sudden dull, like the silence before the arrival of a thunderstorm. Then a few days of the Cold War, who did not mention the divorce thing, but it seemed to be waiting for that day. Wife of the units in the Mind and Body Development organized a training day, which is a half training and half of tourism activities, they must be provided with a companion unit, although I very want to go, but thought this may be the last time and her to travel, perhapscvfhsgdd simply to pay homage to the end of my marriage, I agreed to accompany her. Training in a very beautiful forest park, people are excited about traveling, but the way we both have no words, to a hole called Cangbing attractions, this is a very small entrance, which is very spacious, do not have a Cave of place. Only one person the entrance sideways over, one by one in front of people crowded into it, his wife stuck in the entrance, although there are a few friends she and I push hard, but still can not retreat, and her colleagues roared with laughter, his wife embarrassed face flushed, more desperately struggling, they are even more laughter. Looked at his wife's appearance, I could not help but burst heartache, facing a sentence of her colleagues yelled foul language, "What are you laughing laugh? Laugh at you Grandpa!" And then tried my best to pull his wife outside, in front of her colleagues the angry. Wife took my hand, "You Do not!" No one laughed again, a good friend's friend's wife also complained of several colleagues who, while his wife took my hand, has been reluctant to relax, I clearly see her eyes flashing with shiny things, and tears it? Training is rigorous and exciting, because his wife fat, clumsy movements. In the afternoon, carried out aerial project, the first is the air bridge, the height of 8 meters from the ground there is a bridge built with steel, the middle distance of 1 meter 5 are not floating deck, stand a terrible air . His wife in front of colleagues in the coach to encourage and even force the jump under all of the past, a few did not jump, and are also protected by double rope hanging in the air, then gently placed in the ground. Turn to his wife, perhaps because of weight, perhaps because of fear, I saw his wife's legs and below the bridge deck while trembling violently, and I see almost choked, I can imagine the fear of his wife now, she usually are scared of high. Hesitated a long time, in the coach's urging, she finally jumped up, her feet in the other side of the board only to catch the edge, suddenly, his wife fell down from the broken bridge, that moment, I instinctively fly past with their bodies in the bridge below the pad. But his wife did not fall to the ground to protect the rope to pull his wife firmly in the air, just pull the two members of protect the safety rope hold in the face as the liver, feet have been caught in a training ground for the loose soil go. I quickly got up to help protect the security officer got hold of the rope, when the feet touch the ground his wife when the three of us are tired of sitting on the floor. First, the silence of death in the crowd, applause and laughter suddenly sounded like thunder. On the way home, the wife did not say anything along the way, just grabbed my hand gently on my shoulder. Got home, my wife and I are passionate kissing, I almost brutal warm response, I suddenly felt a little unreal, so feel like I have forgotten for a long time, a little bit both familiar and unfamiliar. Suddenly his wife said firmly, "I want to lose weight!" Although I feel no need to, but do not have the heart to fight against her, and then after that period of time in the way around to look thin. Terrible wife was adamant. Finally she was at a friend's recommendation and decided to order online brand thin U OB protein hormone boxes. Way to the hospital, said his wife has been a joke, but I know she was nervous, her broken nails had to pull my hand. To the hospital, experts carefully listened to our talk, he was professional and enthusiastic attitude to ease the tension I almost nerves, and then gave her a series of checks, drawn up a detailed and thoughtful surgical plan. His wife before surgery, the unit has a very cvfhsgdd important business to my business, and go for several months, I can not do, because I like this business a long time, if I do not, in addition to losing a rare opportunity to come to naught other than , will cause the company serious losses, substitutions also very easy to get, because the new hard to accept each other, but if you went to the wife in the most need of care when I'm not there, I am equally disturbed in mind. After his wife that encouraged me to go out, I know she hopes to surprise me, want me to come back later to see a very different and present themselves. But she did not understand, no matter what she becomes, she is my most important part of life. 4 months later, I finally successfully completed the task, and then apply a common language on the network "at lightning Pirates of the bell of the situation," flew home, knock on the door but nobody opened the door, the mood suddenly poured cold water such as the pledge. Took cvfhsgdd out the key to open the door after they saw a beautiful long legs exactly like Michelle Reis twisted waistline web celebrities "Sister Lotus" written for the usual S-Yi Qiang. I'm shocked, it seems that time back, I was like traveling back a few years ago, the first time saw a door in the cafe waist long hair fluttering legs girl waving at me. "Idiot, have not seen ah?" Point with the index finger of my wife's forehead, I caught myself, "Yes ah, never seen, ah, first time see the beauty, miss your name?" I play a joke with Stanford. "No more, and I am divorced, right?" His wife looked up at me, I looked at her eyes, "silly girl, no matter what you are, you are my favorite baby!" Wife's eyes flash moving the tears, "a relationship of love and build it?" "No?" his wife asked rhetorically, "Do we?" "No?" as if "Westward Journey" in the Monkey King and the Buddha ancestors never be about love Solutions to the problem, but now I know this problem, I already have the answer. (Comment on this)
4:19 pm	Important to you than CS Out of the stadium and saw the door was a familiar figure sitting, came to see is the promise child. I patted her, she apparently startled and saw me, and sighed cvfhsgdd with relief, to a rice cooker insulation handed my hand. I took, she hurriedly hides behind the handle, but I still see her hand was blistering hot. Box of rice a little cold, I asked her: "so long, right?" "For ah, turn off your cell phone." She pouted. "Well not tell you not to come. Come, let me hold, tired?" I am a bit distressed. "I do not come to you hungry stomach, you do not even naughty, but also picky eaters." I eat the box of rice, promise child sitting next to me, nervously: "taste? Good?" My breathing's clinging to dinner, to be honest, quite hard to eat, but I can imagine Socks that will not wash this girl is how awkward the first meal for me. Is the long absence of the moving heart. I laughed and said: "Of course good, you see I'm not all eat it?" Promise to meet the children listened smiling face, stood up and left. "Connaught children are you going?" I asked her. "Home pictures." "Do not worry, I'll show you a place." I led her into the stadium, I've never seen a collar girl friend, let alone Division. Teammates are curious to see the great promise child, "Little wife, little wife," cried, made her face all red, and his teammates came running to me jokingly, I knew that I really love her the. QQ, I asked her, "Snow children, you marry me?" Oh she was giggling, happy to say: "Sure. Before what they say marry me, I feel special horror, but now I was suddenly Xiangjia Ren." Ah, Nokia children, believe me, so I save enough money to let you make the most beautiful bride, we get married. Although we did not get the first team, but we just formed this team soon, the province's second achievement is already very good, so I decided to continue their efforts can not be non-beat first. CS game more and more, I more and more busy, I forgot how long the children had never thought that promise, and I always race to the late, occasionally see her on the QQ, and she was always very quiet, I do not know how she was. Now think of it, know that this is their right, because I never cared about her is not happy, How are you getting bad. One day, she said: "You could take me that session?" I said: "No, ah, I am now in the game is waiting for phone contact. And is about to start out." "That moment is not right?" "Connaught good children." "CS is really cvfhsgdd important to you it?" "Yes." "What about me? Do I have that important?" "Is also important." "Then I and GS which is more important?" "CS." I did not lie to her. QQ long her head no longer move. A few days later, I saw her give me the message: "I do not know can not wait until their GS is more important than the day, as you take care of yourself ... ..." I think she was like in the silly, no read to shut QQ. A few months later, so after CS is already home exhausted, and fell on the bed of a move do not want to move. Then the phone rings, I do not want to take, can it rang forever. I promise I saw a number of children to pick up snappily said: "Do not tell you to call me these days? You do not know how tired I am ... ..." Came a roar that one end of the phone: "... ... fuck you still a man ah?" Not promise child, I surprised a moment, "You Who you?" "You do not bother who I am, the funeral tomorrow, promise child, if you are also considered a man to see her one last time." Promise child? Funeral? What with what? I would like to ask, the phone hang up screeching. A sudden sense of terror took an me, I try my hardest to call back, long before people pick up, is a very old voice, "You look ... ..." "Connaught children do?" "She is gone ... ... ... ..." a tearful voice, apparently. H's what my head, do, promise child she really was hurt? Day, I saw the promise carried out by their children, also with a smile on her face, angelic smile can no longer glow Pan, and Snow's friends, seeing my children's eyes is clearly hostile, anxious to eat me. Promise child's mother told me, there is thrombocytopenia promise child, the family let her do nothing, for fear she accidentally break a finger or any place, flow of blood. Thought cured, but then somehow, suddenly decreased platelet and cardiac function have begun to failure. A few days before her sudden good spirits, we all understand what that means, she said she would like to hear your voice, call you, but shut down, she said that you must do in the game. Some people say to look for you, you can promise to prevent children, she said, race is important to you, she was afraid of yourcvfhsgdd anger, she spoke their cried, and we all followed, and she said sure one day you will understand her important than the CS, but she can not wait until the ... ... from the promise child mother has wiped the tears come. I have not played CS for several days, and stare at the image of promise child of the QQ, since the promise child had gone, I'm all about the power seems to have been siphoned off. Are particularly tired body and mind. I opened the promise of children QQ know, only the number of a person I am. I noticed her information there is a web site, open a feeling Inn, have a variety of stories, including a signed article is the promise child. "Can not imagine, I was so hopelessly in love with him. I like his gentle, like the way he pretends Xiong Baba, I think if one day he asked me to marry, I will marry him. I am quite happy, I like to listen to him, but he would not even unwilling, and I said, because he's busy, he want to make CS. He no longer call me a fool, and he never said love me, nor sent flowers to me, but I still like him. One day I told him that the river flooding again, and he said to accompany me, I am very happy. One day I saw a very cute dog, and he promised me that, in future we will have one, also known as promise child, I am very happy. He said a few days with me watching movies, kite flying, I am particularly happy, though these have not yet realized, I believe that one day will. But I am afraid can not wait that long. He said the CS important than me, I'm not mad, because this is the truth, but I am very sad, so I secretly cried. I think I'm not strong enough, I do not good enough, the doctor said I had not the next birthday, which is * on * day, he did not know my birthday too! But it does not matter. I was weak, just hit a few words on the tired, really useless. I know he has a lot of girlfriends, it was just as I go, he would not hurt, although I did want to marry him, I always hope he sent me roses, even if only one, before a lot of people send me, But I seized, because it represents love, I think I could not wait for the day he sent me, so I secretly bought a gift myself, and I think I never see him write anything, so I can freedom to beat writing, I have to call him, but he was off. That annoying voice repeating 'I'm sorry, you dial the phone was switched off'. I really want to, really want to talk with him, even for a minute, listen to his voice Ye Hao, and we have not met a long time, and I miss him every day. Really good for nothing, cried, alas, in fact, I was very worried about him, and he played the game a long time, eyes hurt, I bought but can not give him eye drops, and, he was fussy eaters ... ... " Article did not finish, like she tired at the end of a flash, I click Play, elegant voice echoed in the empty room. "Quietly with you for a far, far away / with red eyes are not found / heard you say that you now change / look at the smiling faces I still love you / This Old Road has not changed / previous Every time I come are sunny / remember we have ever had before / the tears started to spread a little bit ... ... Every time I turn a blind eye / I'll always see / you will all realize the promise / I kissed your face / you're not me / I wish you had a good point / line broken love / I do not do break / just want to hear your honey before bed complex words sweet words ... ... " Flash making a little rough, but I hold back for a long time that tears or drops down to the end of the screen there are lines of small print. "Want to hear you say you love me, I heard right; Want to accept your rose, a right; Would like more time to love you, even if only one second; But now, I have good hands shaking and wanted to see your face. " I have one person in the dark room, and finally burst into tears, I do miss you, my favorite woman, had a chance to pet you, had a chance cvfhsgdd to fulfill its promise, I had a chance to let you do the most beautiful bride. Damn CS, I did not even see above you one last time, I'm damned. Yes, I understand that you are the most important, but unfortunately you can not wait for me. Ching Ming Festival this year, no rain, I gave up CS, do white collar, I will want you to be my most beautiful bride. "Happy birthday, little fool." Day week I will come here, I just want to talkcvfhsgdd to you like your tombstone white pure hunger. Light breeze like your hair over my face Buddha, still miss my favorite of your smile. Friends and family are surprised at my change, I do not smoke, do not play CS, and do not go on, and kept a lovely dog ​​like you, as good as when we say, call Connaught children, I would just like to talk to you, sending you the most beautiful roses. (Comment on this)
4:17 pm	Behind the kind to give up ... There is a verycvfhsgdd ordinary high school day to the transfer of a boy, tall and handsome, a non-mainstream dress up, always showing from him a noble, rebellious temperament. Of course, this is an ordinary high school, so fine a boy will certainly stir the whole school. Sure enough, one night, he made a name, every day, received love letters, gifts, women often "accidentally" hit look almost routine. Boy, but it has not received any girls. Are not they good enough, only they did not feel anything. Until one day, the boy saw a cute girl, he clearly remembers the moment he saw the girl how fast heartbeat. The boy knew he was in love with girls, although girls are not outstanding, but he only have feelings for this girl. Injury, she had a boy treated very carefully, but the boys only to her as a toy, so she will not dare to accept the feelings, she just dreaded injuries, not to mention the boy so good, girls think the boys will certainly not true of her . Friend told these words intact boy, the boy heart pain, the girl had been hurt. The boy vowed in his heart, he would surely love the girls, would not let her get a little injured. The next day, the boy he likes to tell the world girl, it once again stir the school. Every day the boy went to the girl, with her homework, help her Dafan, take her to the dormitory, rainycvfhsgdd day to help his umbrella, wet himself, he never called her name, has called her "little fool "Because the boy said, called" Little fool "will be more friendly ... ... Gradually, the girl that the boy was really like her. One night, to send girls to the hostel in the small wood hallway, the boy on the girl out again: "Little fool, I love you, really like good love, when my girlfriend, OK? So long, do not you really can not see it I really like you? I promise I will not let you hurt, my life will be good care of you. little fool, I'll hurt you, believe me, okay? " shy girl bowed his head: "ah," the boy bowed his head to kiss the girl, the dim moonlight shines on the boys face, handsome in a mess, the girl closed her eyes tightly. For a long time, the two of them became the envy of everyone in school a pair, the girl felt like Cinderella, the Prince has finally found his, her happy every day, How are you getting a good well-being. But did not last long, the girl found that boys these days about her getting cold, and rarely came to her, and even phone messages are very small. Girls panic, she felt happy as soon slipped away. Finally, the girl could not help but go to the boy's room cvfhsgdd to find him. When the girl went to bed the boy lying on the table, the girl was very angry, the boy would rather sleep wanted to talk to her, and at the same table to see the girl, shook the boy, the boy looked up and saw the girl, got up from his seat out of the classroom lazy to the girl in front of the girl asked the boy looked up: "My husband, why do you ignore me ah? you are not do not want me ah?" the boy's eyes across a trace of sadness indifference, which was then immediately replaced by indifference, he lowered first looked at the girl, looking at the girl, said: "Yes, so you Do not come after me! us over!" These words like bolt from the blue, making the girls Meng Yi Zheng, tears burst down immediately, she pulled the boy's hand; "My husband, you lie to me, right? you said that I would care for my whole life, ah, you said you would not let me hurt, is not it?! you said your little fool I was , you will hurt the small fool, ah well! how could you forget these ah? husband, you must be kidding me, right? "the boy looked over his left without looking girl, he closed his eyes, hard to throw off girl's hand, great strength, so that the girl fell to the ground. He told the girl: "I said, still not clear enough?! I do not want you! Do not like you! Do not come after me!" Surrounded by people who see a joke, everyone's reaction that scared the boys hop. The girl was heartbroken, but she lifted face, looked at the boy asked; "Why?" The boy next to a beautiful female hand clasped the shoulder: "This is the reason" pretty girl probably did not think the boy will like her, she started Somewhat taken aback, and then Huiguo Shen, deliberately to the boys who by the by. The girl looked at this scene, can not breathe faster heartache. She covered her chest, right? All the original lie, he just ... I just play that case, why should I like like a clown for all to joke? But how to do, my heart hurts ... the girl wiped away tears, quiet the boy simply said: "I know, since I will not bother you," said then turned to leave. The boy did not see the girl turned around at the moment, how sad she was crying. Similarly, the girl did not see, she turned, the boy pushed his face in disgust after the pretty girls back seat to sleep, no one can see, the boy climbed up on the table the moment, his eyes red. The boy could bear, and his heartache quickly die, even breathing becomes tingling, he really did not want to hurt her, he promised her he never forgot, he also wants to achieve these commitment ah! He is also really love his little fool, ah, he want to come to hurt her lifetime ah, but since the hospital received the list goes on advanced cancer after all this can not be a fool ... dear, sweet wife, not me in the side after you have a person to live a happy heart, her husband I will love you. Wife, to forgive her husband's selfish, I'd rather hurt you, do not let you watch me die, even if you hate my life, I will not let you suffer so much pain. Wife, I'm sorry, I love you. The next day, transfer the boy, the child no one knew where he went. Girls back to the dormitory, the sound at maximum, a person hiding in the yard crying a lot, for two days, do not eat or drink, no matter who persuaded all to no avail. She just lay for two days. Next morning, she finally got up, the normal brushing, the normal face, normal food, normal school, with a fine person. Friends asked her if she is not concerned about all right, she just laugh it off; "Do you think I look like I do for you?" Friends told the girl, the boy transfer, the girl does not matter shrugged: "Oh." The girl looked indifferent, we all thought the girl had forgotten the boy, in fact, only the girl knew that she was in this life Do not try to forget the boy, even if he lied to her, but she can not forget or fail to live ... The boy was gone, the girl had not talk about love, thoughts are used in the study. Six months later, the girl admitted to the Shanghai Jiao Tong University. The girl at the university did not talked about love, because her heart is still with another person, although the man of her cruel, but she always forget boy. And she did not want to forget those memories are good, because the time she did not want them forgotten, even if these memories mingled with deception ... One day six years later, the girl returned to the high school, the school also the same as before, plants and trees have not changed. Entered the school gates, flood of memories, she and the boy's bit by bit at the moment is like a movie showing in her mind. Did not take the step, her heart, the more pain again. Grove after school, she also clearly remember they had a walk together hand in hand here, he said to her; "fool my wife, I want to love you forever," then, she blushed, and my heart is the sweetness of the . These images as if it happened yesterday, she still remember so clearly. Suddenly, her eyes inadvertentlycvfhsgdd fall into a grave, she wondered how the school may have a small grave in the woods it? She looked into: "ah!" The girl after seeing the name on the tombstone once limp to the ground, the boy's tombstone photos have yellowed, they still could not conceal the boy's Chun Yung-lifetime. Under the stupid girl all of a sudden, he is not transferring the it? How could die? But obviously the photo on the tombstone is his, ah! This in the end how ah? A sweep through the woods when the uncle went to see the girl was scared to sit on the floor, propped busy girl, said; "girl, do not be afraid, ah, the boy ah, got lung cancer death, I heard He was one of our girls in school exchanges, two people all love each other. Later, the cvfhsgdd boys know they have cancer after intentionally hurt the girls, left school, and soon, the girl admitted to the university, the boy died. He died the former was used to buy down this grove, that death must be buried here. He said he had here on the girls promised to love her life, so he want this promise. Well , is a poor boy, ah ... "the uncle said as he swept the ground and left. Girls mind a blank, again Lying on the floor, until the sweeping uncle left a very long time, she finally could not help crying, she shouted the Heartbreakers; "You son of a bitch! How could you deceive me so long ! how you can make me hate you so long! villain! how could you do this to me?! Why do you still have to die without telling me you actually make me hate you?! I do not! "the voice of the girl in a small desolate woods echoed, and finally are shouting hoarse voice, she cried and climbed to the tomb of the boy, stroking his picture, his mouth muttering; "My husband, what are you here for so long must be very lonely, right? husband, You always say I am silly, in fact, your more stupid, why should lie wife? victims of wife hate you for so long. husband, cold and lonely here, ah, my wife with you, okay? " (Comment on this)
4:15 pm	Honey, you owe me a hug long absence If it were notcvfhsgdd that bright afternoon, he wore a light beige suit, seat 5 people in the middle, deep eyes, even with him across a table in the distance, the heart still has a shy voice: so familiar, as if where 've ever seen! Are immersed in the smoke of the past, he woke up, staring eyes surprised me. Wondering said: "Mei, how are you?" "You do not know it, the company sent someone to take care of you, I volunteered to come out on top." "You just spent the probationary period, a great potential for promotion, do not runs the risk of ah? "He spoke slowly, such as the elderly-like earnestness. "Rest assured, workcvfhsgdd and life, and I privately share clear, and the task for now is to keep up your wounds." Helped him forth in the physical therapy room, traction room, Every day was full good. Sun sunny afternoon, I will push his wheelchair, relax in the small garden. To such a simple basking in the sun, is so happy with the ordinary. Yan's face gradually with a smile, quickly recovered, the distance between each other near. 1 month fleeting time, and I return to the workplace, work began to face a new round of challenges. Soon, the company rumored, some innuendo I do is strict with the general manager. Some people say, I was in the use of strict, in order to stay long in the company; Some people say, I just would like to take strict promotion. The face of the chaos of a message, I choose silence, every day is still orderly, hurriedly. After work, I often medicated with good ribs soup pot, to the strict sent. He has been able to hobble around a single abduction of the road, although from the bed to the door, but 2 meters of distance, not even the veins on his forehead and the sweat is less obvious. Watched him struggling, I could not help the tears streaming down. "Crying, ah, silly girl?" Yan said, laughing. "I was happy ah." I brought pork ribs soup, began to prepare dishes. Also talking to himself with: "you had better eat a little, ah, people have lost." "Well, I want to keep fat ah, what motive?" He Qing Yang eyebrows, exaggerated facial expressions, is convulsed. Yan seriously cvfhsgdd looked at drinking soup, a look of serenity. I finally summon the courage to say: "Yan, I love you." Tilt his body slightly backwards, like zheng zhu, and then as if to escape something. "I'm serious, from the first moment you begin to see. I hope, I hope you do the only love of my life." I tried to calm their emotions, but still incoherent with. Yan gazed at me affectionately, half the day before Youde said: "What a silly girl, you will find the other half of life. I just divorced patients only." He paused, voice low, and said: "He will appear in the future." For a time, know what to say. Two years later, I was promoted to manager of corporate planning department, gestures, show executives charm. Sentimental year's ugly duckling has turned into a white swan. This is probably the hard work and love lost miracle brought about by heavy losses. But, some things hard to let go eventually. Every night, Yim Ho's figure appears constantly in mind, be sealed in my life long sigh chant tune. Is a joy of spring, pink human Liulv April, this day, I was shopping tour, "What is thecvfhsgdd Mei Xiao it?" I look back, turned out to be purple clear, orthopedic nurses responsible for Yim Ho infusion. "How do you go to the hospital to see Yim Ho did not it?" Before I could answer, she just keep saying: "Actually you do not understand, he has to escape with this feeling, too much of you, but my heart still love you The. "" He all right? "only if the export, then the tears pour in the eyelashes. He seemed never left, has been quietly living in his own heart. Purple clear eyes downcast, said: "He was very lonely, often a man, his eyes look far away stare, and looked dejected. Doctor consultation concluded that only later in life he spent in a wheelchair." "I beg your pardon?" I do not believe my ears some. She rose slowly, word by word to say: "You heard it right, he probably never be able to stand up, and this is the reason you had decided to give up." He loves me, that love has never been far, only lack of observation! I immediately run to the hospital where serious, tears streaming down his eyes down, but their hearts are like sweet as honey. "Honey, I want to tell you, you owe me a hug a long absence, this life I just cvfhsgdd want to hold you tight, not let go! (Comment on this)
4:10 pm	I regret to marry him, but finally see the deep love 1 In early 2008, the weather seems to get cold in winter than in previous years, a light snow after the small town we live in is also continuous heavy snowfall, cold straight Rugu Sui, fortunately, is that we just moved into a new house andcvfhsgdd installed a heating and air conditioning, fear and then as put in the rental house as before the winter. In fact, home is not new, years ago, they bought a second-hand housing loans, 60 square meters, also a little beat, some of the furniture are the main stay of the old building, the walls are also some yellow color, is not anything worth showing off the house, but since I got married and Liu Zhi of the biggest dreams, so it can always be satisfied as well, looking at the family-like. Moved here a few days later, Liu Zhi busy to eat used purchasing piles back several times in the snow fall and get bruises, I would like a hand with him, mention something, and he cvfhsgdd was severely suppressed by for fear I freeze or wrestling. The pain my man, Liu Zhi, my husband, not a high, simple and honest little face, small staff, nothing special, but I can not hesitate one second to tell you, I love this man more than I thought The also love a lot. 2 Love this word, how do I put four years ago would not come, I come together and Liu intelligence is completely the result of my impulsive. At that time, I just finished an intense love, but also keep a hand wound. Liu Zhi lived opposite to me, usually light for water repair call him for help. Know I was injured, immediately came to me dressing the way my life together with care. Lovelorn heartbroken, knowing that his condition is not good, Xinyi Heng, decided to marry him, and can take care of my wounds so single-minded man, certainly not go down on me to add new wounds, and as a reason for marriage sufficient. We took a double photo directly receive a marriage certificate, both parents are in the field, even the banquet are saved, only for a set of rental housing while the larger houses, the days can be hard to imagine, if it is not working, then divorce, anyway, not much emotion. Liu Zhi want to make sets of wedding photos, I will get fat for their own excuses in the past. Day if you really want to divorce, a wedding had to split in two, trouble. Liu Zhi certainly do not know my dark intentions, took the marriage license the film to enlarge the one, hanging in the bed, happily take a look at a half day, seriously, I would hello, let you be happy. He did not know, happiness, broke my heart so, it is hard. 3 Our married life began to be obvious. Liu Zhi, go out every morning to 6:00 in the evening 6:30 to get home, I work in a supermarket, often I did not get up, he was to work. I am after work, long past dinner time, most of the time, we are each organize their lives. I do not think there is anything wrong, Liu Zhi, found the problem, not even a piece of food you eat is also called the husband and wife? I snappily replied him, you have the ability to possessor of me, I wait for you at home, eat and drink every day. I say a little ruthless, he was choking on the words of a half-day did not answer. Separated a few days, Liu Zhi asked me to call the scheduling table, that will think, do not believe the couple is also difficult to eat meals where to go. This man is sick, do not think about how to earn more money to buy a house, but studying to eat this. Liu Zhi really came back at noon, carrying dishes. It is hot in the day, air-conditioned car is much more to spend four dollars, take the four subsidized lunch, they can earn a lunch break. I considered this statement to him when he says proudly, just spent 50 dollars bought an old bike, a month back on the province. In this way, we can eat three times a week for lunch. Meals are simple, sometimes soup and sometimes they are the leftovers the night before, not much better than fast food, but he was two for dinner together, but I feel nothing, do not eat a meal that is also can really increase the number of feelings. Until one day at noon, I do laundry on the balcony, from a distance to Liu Zhi bike back. I feel bad a bit inexplicable, and I entered the room not enough for him to come back with a sweat smell, no fire under the sun thought he was riding more than thirty minutes by car. The time to think, a bit of guilt, in fact, incidentally, I also take along hand to cook something. Throw the clothes in the laundry pool, I quickly went to his door, took his hand, dishes, was dark around, put a word to him, after, or I'll cook. Since then, the pinch time to associate his home meals ready to eat his dinner, but also to rest for half an hour before you go. This extra half an hour, we were able to just go out to work together. It takes me to the supermarket door, my colleagues see, ultimately, a joke a while, have not seen such a good hole in the two of you, my husband where to even open the door of my work are not clear, you still have her husband's car special delivery. The meaning of words in a little mockery, Liu Zhi no one to listen out loud back to the case, I ah, do no other, this one had hurt his wife got left and had to play point. I quickly from his broken bicycle jumped off the back seat, I feel ashamed, but also a bit warm heart. 4 Speaking of heart-warming thing, Liu Zhi really good at doing it. At the end of my first marriage went to a birthday. I told him cvfhsgdd to just buy small gifts do not buy into the rose to the money, we can eat several meals. He was happy to answer back, I never thought you prepare these ah. Not my own, and heard him say this, a little unhappy. Come home, see the table stood a candle inserted three small cakes are too crowded, and an envelope, perhaps inside the filled a five tickets for birthday card, I am disappointed that they've got to put step one foot smashes. Opened the envelope, actually is the passbook. Looked at 300 books on the solitary figure, I have to laugh out tears, and this idea is also a point of Intuit vulgar. Liu Zhi was solemnly said that from now on, every month you deposit 300 yuan of fixed pension costs. Your job insecurity, although units to pay social security, that's enough for basic living in the future. So I think young, to save you some money, what do you want for the future are good, little money, but I guarantee 300 yuan every month belongs to you. I am a bit silly hair, I do not have even thought of old, what kind of life, and he fell for me first think, and 300 yuan per month, for us, is not a small sum, to keep me out of the old province the use, more difficult. That night, I could not sleep for a long time, around the man of my dreams, though not the kind of man, but he thought seriously than anyone else with me to have a good day, for he was with me when you want to have a lifetime people do. I Xinchan a bit, rest of your life, I can not to end up with scars that have been wound ignore the well-being within reach, Liu Zhi is the letter of feelings, because he believed he was more than I would like to further, With this feeling, so we can have go on. 5 Give me a month to cash on deposit 300 yuan, without use of a fixed income every month, Liu Zhi go and a day laborers, often close to home scrap yards to loading staff, hit something dry, one can earn a twenty or thirty dollars. I do not agree, we are not close to the share of the future money, give me a large sum on deposit is not better? He refused, how can I push to do it later, and now I give you a little bit of memory, the hard point, I am peace of mind. When he went to work, give him a big bottle of tea equipment, towels and sometimes put two cooked eggs, packed in a bag hanging in the back seat of his bicycle. Do not know when to begin, I have become so petty nagging. He came back to tell me the envy of workers work with him his wife prepare for this bag, looks much, are all filled with real things, not the egg is, the bread with the chicken overnight there. I could not help laughing, and Liu Zhi too long, too much like him up, all that good stuff, but also wanted to give him prepare the point, as he stuffed the old apple into mycvfhsgdd bag for fear I to Weight Loss hungry stomach. Loading was tired and dirty job, Liu Zhi work was done almost 11 points at home usually, and I found him a good change of clothes, prepare one or two side dishes and beer, eat some supper. Our kitchen table to put in a corner, to the not very bright lights, looked at him comfortably drinking beer, feel that we like a pair of Xiangruyimo couple years. Unfortunately, I have been, and Liu Zhi life, no longer can not feel the passion of love, only those layers of accumulated feelings of dull days, and now it seems, is more precious, always make me think of everlasting happiness. 6 My life was quickly blink of an eye 4 years have passed, and we got his wish to pay the down payment on a second-hand housing, moving the first week, we started doing finishing work. A few years, we have a dozen of the large and small photo album, perhaps to make up for no wedding regret, he especially liked pictures. We both re-read it again with the photo album, each photo comes with a short Liu Zhi text goes dull marriage certificate from the photos, has been wearing a maternity dress to my potbellied appearance, he recorded down, let us The days are getting clear, organized. I saw myself in the photo, is the expression of moisture to live. Long been said to me, from my smile I can feel happy, and fun, can get very good care of her husband and I belong to a rare, certainly loves her husband. I was noncommittal, I thought, and Liu Zhi was not love, we only have feelings through thick and thin. Liu Zhi, the share of book I took out a good income, fear moving house easy to find chaos. Although the book gave me, but they placed in him, and I never say in how much to save money, I do not know what the numbers change. In recent years, he gives the equipment a car, plus a lot of night, saw the empty bottles started for home pick up, having left much to buy a dress. I asked him, so alive, what fun, he said, never thought so much, wanted to be with you the before, you do what I can do to feel very happy. I opened the book, the original number of 300 was isolated behind the already long list of numbers followed by a month, did not pull down, which made me shocked, passion fleeting, the only love they are so step by step, Liu Zhi did, I suddenly saw the love, if not take it as a feeling, that is a very deep love. Liu Zhi, see me in tears, moved by the appearance of silly, hey smile told me a secret, in fact, sometimes afraid of their own perseverance, he said in a divorce when you are not happy, you always complain about our home Unlike home, but I told myself, wait and see, really can not wait until the day you love me all the value it? This is not to wait until I look at it? These words, I still want to cry a little, glad that cvfhsgdd they have feelings, and the marriage together for over 4 years time, and finally I find love the right direction, so that I can not hesitate one second to confirm I love this man more than anyone else, just as he has been seriously than anyone else and I want to have a good day. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2011
2:04 pm	What’s in a Wedding Card Most of us take wedding cards for granted. It is mournful truth that happens in our midst. now that know-how and virtual lifestyle is slowly taking over our lives, most of us could not very see the worth of a wedding card. This is exceptionally true for the guests of the marriage. Most guests would buy the couple a useful home appliance or give them funds than spend a quantity of their precious time making a card. They have this notion that wedding cards are stressful and hard to make. It is not for a quantity of us who are not creative . They have this idea that if they are not that artistic, they cannot come up with an ideal wedding card and they would finish up worn out and frustrated. However, they still must think about making a card if they are not mere acquaintances of the bride or groom. It is important for them to listen to your sentiments and well-wishes in your own words, for this significant time of their lives. Yes, you read that Ed Hardyright, your own words. In the event you are to make a wedding card, make positive that you would have a insightful and thoughtful message to boot. Your card may not be superb and ultimately stunning, but it would matter in the event you would write a message that is all by yourself. Not the type of message that you could see in neither commercially-available greeting cards nor the kind of well wishers that you could find in the net, the message in your wedding card ought to come from your heart. And in the event you think the couple would have no way of finding out that you lifted your message somewhere online, well think again. Apparently, people are sensitive when it comes to cards. When your time comes that you would get married and would get some cards, you would recognize the way you could basically distinguish a personalized message from the ones that is copied elsewhere. In the event you are clueless on what you would write in a wedding card, well think about that the couple is about to start a used chapter in their lives and they would need all the support from their relatives and friends to endure all of the challenges that comes with it. Always keep in mind, beginning a used life together is an adventure and it is proper to wish the bride and groom numerous lovely wishes. (Comment on this)
2:03 pm	Discover Another Dimension Of Yourself Through Boudoir Art If there is thing that a woman ought to try, it is none other than boudoir Art. Well, females are the ones who are more vulnerable with stress, pressures, standards, and other kind of insecurity. Most of the time, these factors can make a woman feel very unbeautiful. Females fail to appreciate their own beauty and they often feel inferior when compared to others. In this generation where most people depend on norms, it is very important to find something that will assure every woman that they are pretty and pretty. Well, this is the reason why boudoir art has become very popular nowadays. Boudoir art offers a very matchless way for any woman to see another dimension of herself. It aims to bring a woman's confidence through a state-of-the-art photography. Well, most of the photographs in boudoir photography are very erotic and shows off more skin. This is why boudoir photography has been often associated with pornography. However, boudoir art aims for a woman to explore beyond her limitations. It basically creates a way for any woman to feel nice about her self again. Well in doing this type of photography, a very expert boudoir photographer is a must. Since every pose and facial expressions are very sensitive, it matters that the photographer ought to find his subject's best angles. Finding the best anglesEd Hardy will bring out the best in any woman and will be able to conceal some imperfections. Being comfortable in front of the camera is and a factor in boudoir art. The photographer must be able to finding a way on how to make his subject look at ease because any apprehension or hesitation will certainly reflect and may ruin the result of the photograph. Utilizing the available resources will also help in generating an ideal picture. The photographer must know how to make use of the lighting, props, and other things wisely and carefully. Boudoir art photography offers three matchless styles that a woman can pick from in doing this type of art. These styles are fashion, erotic, pin up, artistic, provocative, and classic. Well, all of these styles have been carefully thought of in order to bring a distinctive result for somebody to see. But among the three styles, lots of have expressed interest in pin up photography work. Since this style is the which can be seen in men's journal, this style has always been popular with men. Well, a woman does not must feel very inferior and unbeautiful. With boudoir art, a woman will certainly have the chance to appreciate her own beauty in another dimension. (Comment on this)
2:01 pm	Removing Gang Tattoos to Start a Renewed Life At time gangs were part of the stereotypes that mainstream associated with tattoos. Street gangs, convicts, carnies, bikers, the military & sailors are a quantity of the groups throughout history that would come to a person's mind when the subject of tattoos was brought up. For gang members, however, tattoos are still a way of both asserting enrollment in the gang & a way to thumb their nose at society. These tattoos are also known as identifying tags. They usually have their tattoos in highly visible locations including the hands, neck & face area. Other popular locations for gang related tattoos are the chest & back area. By placing these tattoos in simple to spot locations, they make it simpler to be identified by other gangs. The meanings behind a quantity of these symbolic tattoos are regularly changing but some symbolism remains. The police keep up with the tattoos used by gangs in their jurisdiction to enable them to better deal with gang violence & crime. The spider web tattoo is usually placed on an elbow or a neck & indicates the person served time in jail. Teardrop tattoo design in jail indicates that person has murdered anyone. More recently, teardrop tattoos have come to signify the loss of a mate or loved. Gang members are most likely to be tattooed by fellow gang members or a tattoo artist that is affiliated with the group. Former gang members who need toEd Hardy turn their lives around & rejoin society are given that chance with the availability of tattoo removal. Removing these tattoos enable them to blend in with mainstream The united states more basically, pursue legitimate employment more basically, & may even make sure their safety in the event that they are still exposed to either their own former gang associates or rival gang members. Some former gang members wishing to leave this hazardous lifestyle behind them have resorted to extreme measure to remove their own tattoos. A quantity of these measures include "cutting" out & burning off their gang tattoos. Tattoo removal costs are high & often cost over the original tattoo work plenty of times over. Fortunately, due to the goodness of a few, free laser tattoo removal is being offered to former gang members that need to rid themselves of their gang symbols. In numerous parts of the country, non-profits & professional individuals are donating their funds & time to help people that would probably never be able to raise the funds to get them removed themselves. Removing a gang symbol not only contributes to the safety of the person but also makes their transition to a life devoid of crime more finalized. Local governments are now realizing that this is truly a beneficial program & are apportioning funds to similar programs. (Comment on this)
2:01 pm	Taking a Gamble Appropriating a Tattoo by a Scratcher If you have a deep involvement with anyone who works in the tattoo industry, you have probably heard this term. A scratcher is anyone who doesn't work in a legal shop but in lieu gives tattoos to people out of a spare room in their home or sets up something temporary in the kitchen. They usually don't have any formal training or experience. Some professional artists are vehemently against scratchers. Not for the reason that they feel a serious affront to their business but due to the feasible health risk they pose in the event that they are not practicing proper sterilization procedures. They have also have customers coming to the shop receive a poorly done scratcher tattoo fixed or receive a cover-up to disguise it. Normally the quality produced by scratchers is of inferior quality that will have you jogging to your nearest store for some Wrecking Balm tattoo removal cream or saving up your alter to pay for a pricey laser removal treatments. Without a tattoo apprenticeship or a professional artist to act as trainer, the wantabe artist is likely to produce an poor quality piece of work. Most often the customers that patronize scratchers are under the legal age to be tattooed or don't have Ed Hardy clothingthe prepared assets to pony up for a professional tattoo. Scratchers often charge much less for their work than what a professional artist would charge. More serious than the chance of getting a poorly done tattoo when patronizing a scratcher is the risk of blood borne diseases & possibility of infection. When getting a tattoo, the skin is broken which invites the risk of skin infections as well as other complications. In a professional shop they are necessary to meet the high quality standards mandated in their area for licensing. In lots of states, periodic testing of their sterilization equipment is mandatory insuring the equipment used in the work of the application of the tattoo is safe from spreading diseases. If the equipment used to apply a tattoo is not properly sterilized & it is contaminated by infected blood, you are in danger of having the diseases passed on to you. You risk obtaining blood borne diseases such as tetanus, HIV, hepatitis C & hepatitis B. These diseases can be life threatening & are irreversible. Other complications from a non sterile surroundings & contaminated equipment include bacterial infections & potential skin issues such as bumps & raised areas from scar tissue from improperly administered tattoos. More youthful individuals who are likely to encounter scratchers ought to heed the warning of the danger they are exposing themselves to & the risks they are taking. (Comment on this)
1:59 pm	So You Want to Learn The Saxophone The saxophone was originally created by a Belgian gizmo maker called Adolphe Sax in 1843. The saxophone was developed chiefly to be played with military groups but has these days become more familiar with Jazz, Huge Band, and lots of different genres of well-known music today. The saxophone, is a woodwind gizmo, although it is constructed of metal. It's a cold, sexy sound that is outstanding. The sax is straightforward to learn and is a lovely gizmo for any person greater than the age of 12 who desires to be able to play a few basic songs without needing any ample musical experience. The sax has a single vibrating reed fitted to finish of a long horn by a mouthpiece which is narrow at the reed finish and broadens out along the length in to a wide 'bell' at the other finish. In order to make the saxophone simpler to handle, the horn is twisted in to the characteristic 'S' shape appearance, apart from the small saxophones, such as the soprano, which is straight resembling a clarinet. The first saxes had a range of about octaves. With a gift day class of saxophone the range is now around and a half octaves, although with special playing skills a lot greater notes can be attained. Modern saxes also have a better designed key mechanism making them simpler to play. First Steps It is advisable that you start learning with the alto saxophone. A soprano is also ok for a beginner, but it is not advisable that you kick off with a tenor or baritone sax - get an alto to start with, you can always swap later. The alteration will be much simpler. because the saxophone is not of the most difficult instruments to pick up and play, when you put the hard work in you can actually be playing tunes very quickly. To play the saxophone you require to have arms capable to hold it and hands huge to cover the keys. There's no small instruments for new starters, howbeit of work the tiny soprano saxophone is easier in this respect. It is not unusual for kids of 11 or 12 to start on the sax. take note that obtaining a sound embouchure (how your mouth fits the mouth piece) from the beginning is an absolute requirement because this will influence the all round tone quality of the saxophone, this is why it is not recommended for young individuals who still have their first teeth learn to play the sax as your teeth have an important part of a lovely embouchure. Practice, And More Practice You will certainly require lovely bookswomen clothing and dvd's that teach you fingering, scales, exercises which aid you to create an excellent embouchure etc. Beginning to play a saxophone will require you to dedicate lots of hard work in regular practice. Molding your skills and beginning to play like a pro comes with persistence and discipline, along with training and practice on a day to day basis. Permit yourself a generous amount of time to practice your method and know how to better your deficiencies. It is highly recommended that you look for a lovely tutor in the area which you live who will be able to monitor your progress and help you maintain discipline and keep you focused. What You Will Require Purchasing a top quality sax will give you the best start on this musical journey, don't forget you will always get what you pay for, you may be tempted to get the lowest priced but you'll probably pay out in the long term or become dissatisfied with its tone quality very rapid. See it as a long term investment not an expense. Purchasing a Quality horn from a creditable manufacturer will put you in lovely stead long term, as well as having a high-quality tone and a more correct intonation. Other basic equipment include- (Comment on this)